Photo by Eleni Gage.
Guest editor blog today Author (and daughter) Eleni N. Gage, author of The Ladies of Managua, relays her
travel fiasco from New York to New Orleans to Miami and back home. This first appeared on the travel website Fathom.
I thought I had planned
everything perfectly. But one of the things travel and motherhood have in
common is that nothing ever goes as planned. When I did the math and confirmed
that my novel, The Ladies of Managua, would be
published while I was on maternity leave, I realized I'd be able to set up a
book tour, something which would have been nearly impossible at any other time,
given my full-time job as a magazine editor. For the first third of my
three-month leave, I figured, I'd sit at home, recovering, breastfeeding, and
staring into the eyes of newborn Nicolas. In the second month, I'd bring him
and his three-and-a-half-year-old big sister, Amalia, with me from New York to
New Orleans and Miami, both of which are settings for the novel, for book
events. Again, perfect timing! I'd forgotten the cardinal rule of parenting:
Just when you think you've got this motherhood thing down, someone is
guaranteed to poop all over your white jeans.
As my book tour approached, I found myself right
back on that parenting roller coaster, hurtling up peaks and down valleys. The
new baby was a great eater: peak! But I now had mammoth, grandma-like 32E
breasts and a gut that celeb moms such as Heidi Klum, who walked the runway for
Victoria's Secret shortly after giving birth, would never recognize: valley. I
finally found a dress (that concealed unloved body parts), to wear to every
single book event: peak! While at my launch party, it was not wine but
someone's breast milk that spilled on said dress: valley. When it came time to
leave town for my event in New Orleans, the baby was in a feeding groove, and I
felt invincible. Until people began to suggest that maybe I was just
insensitive. Nicolas was only six weeks old, and my aunt wondered why I
insisted on dragging the kids all over creation.
"Babies aren't easy to come by," she
said. "Enjoy yours. Spend time with your kids instead of chasing
money." Clearly, she knows nothing about publishing. The book tour was
unlikely to bring me vast riches. But I wanted to give the book, which I'd been
working on since Amalia was a year old, more visibility and to show my
children, especially Amalia, that work you love matters. But was I making their
lives more stressful in the bargain?
On the flight from LaGuardia to Miami, I carried
Nicolas in a shirt made with a pouch for baby-wearing. Rocked to sleep by the
motion and white noise of the plane, he slept the entire flight. Upon arrival,
we learned that, after a long illness, my grandfather-in-law had passed away.
My husband left for Nicaragua to attend the funeral the next morning and I
stayed behind with Nicolas, whose passport had yet to arrive. En route to Miami
alone, I tended to a screaming baby all through airport security at New Orleans
airport (it lasted about 45 minutes). Older women corrected the way I held the
baby, younger women looked horrified, and men averted their eyes in terror.
When we arrived at my parents' apartment in Miami after midnight, I was covered
in breast milk (mine), urine (the baby's), and sweat (who knows). All I wanted
to do was shower and throw my clothes in the laundry. The next morning, I woke
up clean but without my engagement and wedding rings. My mother and I tore up
the house, the beds, and the washing machine looking for them. Then I
remembered separating the trash from the recycling in a sleep-deprived haze the
night before. My mom, bless her heart, went through the garbage and found my
rings stuck to a dirty diaper. Exhausted and filthy, I had thrown out my most
valuable pieces of jewelry (both practically and sentimentally).
The next day, after my final reading took place at
my favorite independent bookstore, I signed books while Amalia drew on paper
napkins with the Sharpies the store had provided. As I spoke to the woman in
front of me, Amalia turned to the stranger behind her and said, "I'm
drawing pictures for my mommy because I'm proud of her. She did a REALLY good
job." It was the best moment of my book tour. The events were nice, but
the highlights of the trip came from being on the road with my kids, whether we
were schmoozing tattooed Cajuns in a French Quarter courtyard, feeding fish in
the fountains of Miami Beach's Lincoln Road, or dabbing Nicolas's tiny feet in
the ocean for the first time. And even though Amalia threw up on me during the
eleven-minute drive to Miami International Airport on the way home and I caught
a bug on the flight and was feverish for two days afterwards, I'd do it all
over again.
Which reminds me of the second cardinal rule of
parenting: Traveling with kids is never easy, but it's almost always worth the
pain.
